A blissful vacation with family these past two weeks. I had a great time with my babies in our home state visiting our relatives and playing with our friends. It's back to reality now preparing for what will be a hectic week to come as we move in-state to a bigger home...
Nothing ever compares to that of your own family. As you mature, you realize how much you need to let the people who feed negative energy into your life go and embrace the ones who would rather feed you positive energy every moment possible. While I love my family dearly, I've spent the majority of my life taking care of everyone else, worrying about everyone else and not taking advantage of beneficial opportunities because of them. You don't realize how much you've missed out on until you're reminded of how much you've missed in being there for nothing.
Thanks be to god, I've been blessed with a wonderful husband and two beautiful boys. They for one are whom I need to direct 100% of my attention to, not the others... While I'll always love my extended family members and wish that I could just fix everyone's problems, I no longer can afford to jeopardize my one life to live in effort to make theirs just the way they'd want it. While that may sound harsh, the truth hurts. I've always been the sensitive type, the one to get offended easily yet still make a big thing out of nothing. I've always been a drama queen with good reason and forever have I tried to be the life saver.
My point is, there's no way to balance the life as a working mommy, a wife, a daughter, a relative and a babysitter (and I don't mean to my own children). Believe me, I've tried to juggle it! I've come to realize that for so long I've left myself behind and I need to find the way to get myself back and only myself. Speaking of age, I feel as though I'm at my prime, at 26. I want to still become extremely successful in my career, I want to always try and be a better mommy, the most fabulous wife both inside and out, a relative to those who actually care for me back and reciprocate the love and a friend to those whom are actually good friends to me. Let's be honest, now a days, that's old school.
Like the songs always sing, "you've gotta do you!" Who'd have known that in this day and age, they're right. My inner self, faith, beliefs and perspectives need to be based on a healthy lifestyle that I create for myself. Every day is a new day so I should start now....
Yours truly,
You
