Life changes...

Its crazy how from one minute to the next, life can change? The people in my life, the things I do on a regular basis, etc. can all just go away, change or become void. Lately, my family aspect has been the most challenging. Between my blood relatives and my in-laws, justice has been dismissed. I’d like to think that it's just a seasonal thing that possibly they too are going through things for which I have no control over. But, at the end of the day, I still love, cherish and adore them. Up to what point though? Up to what point is it okay to be talked about, treated unfairly, accused wrongly, etc? Up to what point is it no longer my fault and is it theirs? Sounds childish huh? You’d be surprised though as to how much older yet so much more childish those people act over me.




At this point, the best thing for me to do is to break away. Breaking away from all of the sadness and moping and just getting back to me. At the end of the day, and through pensive processes, my family is the one that my husband and I created and no one else’s. We are the controls of our destiny, of our wishes and of our health. we are responsible for how things affect us and if they do affect us to a point of no control, it is up to us to change that hurt into a positive feeling, grow from it and ultimately learn from each experience. Why should one person’s hurt towards another govern their emotions? I guess the better question would be, why am I so sensitive and let things bother me so easily?



Granted, being overly self-conscious like that can cause for assumption when in actuality the source of what that person meant to say or do really wasn’t harmful. I guess my spirits are low these days. I have recited the Serenity prayer like I’ve gone to the bathroom these past few days because of how I’ve been feeling. Like the prayer recalls, there are things that I can’t change and I need that strength to get over it. It’s not my fault why they are miserable, why they just don’t know the source of the information to accuse rightfully instead of wrongly, why possibly what they want I have or vise versa and instead of being proud as I would be of them, they’re hateful.



Given time, all does heal. I’ve learned that through experience and through maturity. Achieving such grasp of understanding doesn’t come in a manual nor is there ever a clear way of processing it.



Nonetheless, I love my husband and most importantly, my babies and it’s because of them I continue to live my life in the most healthy way possible.



Sincerely,



Tiff

Passion for change...

Life in South Carolina has definitely shown me that while there is civilization after Miami, there's nothing like one's niche. i have tried, in more ways than one, to accomplish my life and make the best out of my situation. there is no connection like that of the one i have back home. while i have always been a fan of moving away and trying something new, I'd like to think i exhausted every option prior to giving up on a place. in my case, i think it was more influential than not to have made this move. it wasn't based on my desire. i was made to believe that this place was the next best thing after sliced bread. ultimately, and at times, i did enjoy it and wanted to escalate my ventures into other directions but I'm not sure that is my plan anymore.

My passion for owning my yummy creations business is live. Maybe this is something I'd be super successful in doing here in South Carolina considering there are no Hispanic bakeries, limited Latin cuisine and if so it's Mexican and barely any Latin-inspired pastries in the grocery store.

What are your thoughts? I'm focused on making this my last resort prior to exploring my options elsewhere, hint hint, back home. Granted, and in today's economy, one has to be extremely patient when trying to start a business anywhere for that matter. Would almost 3 years of traveling back and forth the east coast be permissible to say I've been patient though?

I'm determined yet anxious, passionate yet reluctant and ultimately focused yet questioning. A little in between it all wouldn't you say?

Direction would be a killer right now...